Asking
It saves confusion
It makes people happier
It only helps when not ignored
Ignoring
It adds hurt
It makes people frustrated
It makes it easier to make assumptions
Assuming
It hurts people
It causes friction
It ruins friendships
Ruining
It leaves a scar
It rarely is fixed
It needs to be saved before getting to this
Saving
It comes from talking directly
Not ignoring
Not assuming
Not ruining
Just asking
Clocks tick, moving slowly
Giving me unwanted time to think.
I lose myself in thoughts
When I want to do is
Listen to melodies.
But my brain has other plans,
Taking me back to every mistake,
Every pain,
Completely ignoring
My protests that I scream.
When I finally win
The terrible battle with myself,
I write
To lose myself
But in a better way,
A positive way.
As the clock it says
No more than ten minutes
Have passes but it feels
So much closer to an
Eternity.
Finally, after my hand is
Quite numb from recording
My every thought,
The bell rings.
And I thank the Power
That the torture is over.
until tomorrow.
I'm always standing on this bridge, waiting alone
Halfway here, halfway gone
And trying so hard not to cry all the time
This is the state I'm left in all the time
Everyone pushes me away and I push them away
You along with them, I don't know why
Or maybe I do, I'm not sure anymore
Until you came along, I understood life
I now think it's upside down, topsy-turvy
Like I no longer know which way is up
Oh well, I will survive, I always do
Very hard this life can be, but I guess it's what
Everyone says it is, so hard, so so hard
You don't agree, you think it's easy
Over and over you say that it is
Until I prove you wrong and then
I wish that I could say I could find someone that's even close to like you,
But I would be lying, because there is no one like you.
At least no one that would put up with me the way you do.
You have no idea how much I take you for granted,
I love you and everything you do.
You're my best friend and will always be in my mind;
What you would say and do to anything I will do
Is what I will always think of
Because I have known you that long and
That well that I can do that.
That I don't have to even actually tell you what I'm going to do,
But I know what you'll do.
Please, please just smile, maybe even laugh at
The memory of me and
You should always look for that lonely girl
The one with the broken smile
You might not notice that her smile is broken at first
But talk to her if you see she fidgets when someone sits close to her
When she is even around people
Even if she runs from you
It's because she's scared
Scared of being hurt
Scared of being burned
Scared of losing everything again
Maybe if she was shown that someone deserves
Her complete and unwavering trust
Maybe her smile will become less broken
But how can you know if you never ask her?
She just wants a true friend
Someone she can tell everything to and not be shunned for
I've always wanted to be a singer
But I can never do more
Than these terrible little poems
That don't even rhyme
Does that mean I should give up
On this dream I've had forever
Since I was old enough to dream
Because I can't write a song?
But that means letting go of
The little girl that's somehow
Managed to survive through it all
Something I don't know if I can do
I muse out loud and make people upset
So I suppose it's song writing
Just without the music that I can't write
I'm going to smile and pretend I can
You know that's all I think I can do most days
Because smiling says "I'm okay"
Even when you're so close to dying ins
I'm Not Sure How to Put This by Naxery, literature
Literature
I'm Not Sure How to Put This
We seem to be drifting
You seem to be distant
I seem to be distracting myself
To keep from talking directly to you
But yet I can't keep from it
I have to talk to you
I don't know why I do
Something is very wrong with me
My friends say you are irritating
So do I but for a complete different reason
You aren't telling me what's on your mind
You're completely guarded and cut-off
I'm sorry for writing this
I needed to get this out
This will never make any sense
At least I had something to write about
I'm sorry for talking about what I don't know,
For wanting so much attention,
Thinking everything is the same between me and you.
Never before had I had a friend like you,
And I went blew it up at times,
You know it's true.
My 'sibling', my friend,
The one I look to for help.
When I need a hand, you always have one to lend.
I'm sorry about the future, I'm sorry about the past,
I'm sorry about the present,
I'm sorry for making us grow apart in seasons last.
Even with all the apologies, the one thing I leave unsaid,
I will always be there for you,
I hope this friendship never ends.
Why I can't support the Day of Silence by HuntingForHappiness, literature
Literature
Why I can't support the Day of Silence
I’ve been informed that this Friday is the Day of Silence. For those of you who don’t know what that is, it is an event conceived by an LGBT rights organization called the Gay, Lesbian and Straight Education Network(GLSEN). High school participants take a vow to not speak for an entire day to represent, and bring attention to, the silence that queer youth are forced into every day. Now. I think it’s great that we are involving youth in these kinds of awareness campaigns, and thereby facilitating valuable discourse about the plights of LGBT youth.
And that is where my issue with the Day of Silence arises. I once parti
1. This survey gets a little personal; can you handle it?
Sure, why not. Can't be that bad.
2. If you married the last person you texted, what would your last name be?
Moreno.
3. Were you happy when you woke up today?
I wasn't happy, but I was content.
4. When were you on the phone last? And with who?
My uncle Wade a few hours ago.
5. What are you excited for?
A Skype call tonight.
(Where the hell is question 6?)
7. Honestly, who was the last person to tell you they love you?
Christian.
8. What's the last thing you put in your mouth?
A cookie.
9. Have a best friend?
Yep.
10. Are you scared to fall in love?
Kinda.
11. Do you
Mock Trial tomorrow. The first meet. I'm freaking out. What if I forget my testimony? What if I'm not in character? What if I don't know how to answer a question on cross? What if Bri doesn't object when she needs to? What if I'M objected to? What if I'm impeached? Oh god.
No, I'm not freaking out that bad, but I am a bit stressed. I'm missing all of school tomorrow due to this, including a science test and phy ed. I have to make up that gym class. I'm NOT looking forward to that at all. I also signed up to be in a quartet that's preforming at something Apollo's hosting. I'm going to fail that I just know it. My lessons are going quite well
Don't want to use Wikipedia or Google tomorrow. Yes GOOGLE is in on this.
http://sopastrike.com/
Most websites on there are in on it. At least Four hundred websites are listed there. Even some Facebook profiles. Yes you can put your Facebook profile on that. So, gogogogogo.